Lost my mojo

Have you ever had a time when you just didn't have any motivation to do the things you love to do.

Today the temperature hit 70. The first time since November. And my favorite weekly gravel ride scheduled.

On my Erie Canal trip, October 2024

And I didn't go.

Instead, I came up with excuses: I needed to go to the store for groceries. There was a chance of rain during the ride. I hadn't ridden since last year.

Stupid excuses.

But why? I love riding my bike. I'm actually considering buying a mountain bike so I can ride with my friends, and get off the road.

In fact, yesterday, I was watching an incredible Paris-Roubaix road race that came down to a sprint between the current World Champion, who hasn't lost a race all year, and one of the favorites, who has finished 2nd, 3rd, and 4th in the past 3 editions. During the race, all I could think about was when this is over, I should go for a ride.

The favorite beat the World Champion. It was amazing, and I was super happy.

Cycling - Paris-Roubaix - Paris, France - April 12, 2026 Team Visma | Lease a Bike's Wout van Aert celebrates after crossing the finish line to win the 2026 Paris-Roubaix REUTERS/Christian Hartmann

I sat there and talked myself out of going for a ride.

It was in the 50s, the wind was gusty, I would have to change my clothes, will they fit, I'll have to find my cool weather clothes, and, and, and....

What is wrong with me.

There was a time I would do anything to get out on the bike. Now...excuses to not.

These bike races like Paris-Roubaix, the Tour de France, and the Ironman World Championships in Kona, Hawaii typically have me out the door as soon as they are finished. If someone came with me, great. If not, so what.

I was free!

I've written before about going through "the change". I'm officially old, having gone through menopause, and now I'm lacking motivation.

Maybe I'll find a friend?

It's been rough.

I did a little research, and found out that this is pretty common. There are ways to get over it, but it is just going to take some time, and hard work.

Tomorrow is another day, and it is supposed to be 80.

Maybe I'll go for a lunch time bike ride. Maybe.

And if I don't, it is ok. I can't beat myself up about it. What I do need to do, is keep a positive attitude, recognize that its ok, and try.

Walks are good too.